Sunday, July 31, 2011

Why not writing?

Some friends commented that I am no longer blogging because I am no longer moody. Is that really so? :)

Truth be told, I don't really know...

Monday, December 27, 2010

Happy New Year!

My musings as I look back at the year just past, and look forward to the year ahead:

He seems so much happier with you in his life. I hope you will always be able to bring him so much joy...but if one day things should change, I will understand. I only ask that the pain be minimal...

I know I am grateful for the one in my life. :) You bring me the greatest comfort in ways only you know how. In the new year, I promise to get myself ready to bring you that 'little bundle of joy' you are so eagerly anticipating.

It has been a year filled with a lot of self-discovery...I have come to terms with myself & hence made peace with a lot. This, to me is a great personal achievement...at least I am no longer uncomfortable being just me. And I also realise not everything has to be perfect...it just is, and most times, just is can be good enough.

For the new year, I want loads of laughter...not only for me, but for all my loved ones. For joy in life is the greatest blessing!


Sunday, November 07, 2010

我要放宽心胸。

如果我们只是萍水相逢的两个人,我很肯定自己会想跟你好好交心做朋友。
既然如此,我不该犹豫。但在我行为上还存有偏差的时候,请明白,那是因为之间牵涉到对我非常重要的一个人。

但也就因为这个人对我而言有多么重要,我更要努力跨越自己心里的犹豫和猜疑。

Saturday, November 06, 2010

My Emotional Roller Coaster

"Life can be like a roller coaster...
And just when you think you've had enough, and you're ready to get off the ride and take the calm, easy merry-go-round...
You change your mind, throw your hands in the air and ride the roller coaster all over again.
That's exhilaration...that's living a bit on the edge...that's being ALIVE!"

- Stacey Charter (1999)

And I think, to a large degree, that's the way I really am. :)

Collecting my thoughts

You said "Life is simple. Don't make it complicated."
There can be a lot of wisdom to these words. I hope you subscribe to this, and is not just merely paying lip service to a nice-sounding quote.

Mr Guru said that everyone has his own journey, and you must let him walk it.
I know this. Yet, knowing cannot alleviate the pain of seeing him stumble. I recognise that I am in no position to cushion any impact, yet, I cannot help but wish I have that ability. I cannot prevent him from falling, I may not even be able to catch him when he falls. But I will be here for him, comforting in whatever way I can.

Nothing hurts me more than when my loved ones hurt. Besides listening, I feel quite helpless most of the time...and most times, their pain & frustrations overwhelm me, so much so that I no longer know what to do. I know that a listening ear is probably all they need, but I always wish I can do much more. I push myself to understand, I push myself to do something to make things right. Irony of it all? Half the time, I too do not know what is right!

My significant other becomes my grounding force in times like this. He is always able to detach emotionally, and rationalise things. My years with him have taught me that emotional detachment is not always wrong...it does not mean I am cold or cruel. It just empowers me to make sound judgement calls. I am still learning, and he is my teacher...and I will always be grateful for his reassuring presence.

I don't have a magic wand. I don't have enough wisdom. But I have a heart filled with love for my nearest & dearest. So I pray not only for your happiness, but also that both you and myself have the strength to walk this journey.

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Let's Bite It! :)

人生有几个十年?
So let's just bite it and live in NOW. :)


Go for it now. The future is promised to no one. ~Wayne Dyer


Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive. ~Elbert Hubbard

Enjoy yourself. It's later than you think. ~Chinese Proverb

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Hold on To Life's Dearest


Hold on like you are never meant to let it go...

Saturday, July 24, 2010

What is happiness?

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.

- Groucho Marx